Steadfast Mercy

God is really speaking to me! I am having such a wonderful journey with the Lord.

Well last night, was kind of funny and really embarrassing. So i lead the youth in praise and worship last night. But i was kind of uneasy with our first song, i can’t seem to remember how to sing it, because we were playing a different key while what was playing on my head was the original key of the song Salvation is here by hillsong united. So when i got on stage i approached our guitarist and asked him if he could help me figure out how to sing the song, and so he was silently playing it and i was trying to sing it,and even he couldn’t seem to sing it right, but we didn’t have much time to figure it out because our youth leader passed it on to us already. It was time to start the praise and worship and our guitarist and i were some sort of laughing and nervous because i know we will somehow messed up. And so i started speaking and asked how everyone was doing, and asked if they’re ready to worship. And so the band started playing, and when i sang the first line i was completely out of tune! That was my first time! And i can’t quite get back to singing it right! And so our band leader approached the Mic nearest him and started backing me up with vocals, but i can’t really quite get it, so in my mind i was like ” Oh God why now? It was so perfect when we were practicing.” and i heard him say ” Just go on.” And so i was really struggling, my sister was looking at me and she was like “ Trish?!?!?” It was so embarrassing, and finally i sang it right when it came to the chorus! It was such a relief but when the verse hit again, i sang it off again! But what was running through my mind that time “ Oh God whatever i do, you must always receive worship” So out tune as i was, i lifted my hands and started getting all hyper in worshiping God. And then the chorus hit again and i’m back in perfect tune until the bridge past and the song ended.

That was one embarrassing experience right? Actually that song is haunting me now, i can’t seem to get it out of my head and how i wished i was able to sing it right. So that was the reason why i can’t get the youth worship service since last Sunday? For the past days i’ve been thinking about it without knowing why.

And some people, most especially the ones that are really not musically inclined didn’t notice the mistake. And some people came up to me , especially the leaders, telling me that they did notice that, but it was good that i kept going and it all turned out that they had an amazing time in worshiping the Lord. They said that it was alright to make that mistake for previous worship leaders have gone through that before and  i wasn’t as bad for someone who has only lead for four times. And the anointing of God was there, and they saw how i passionately worshiped God.

So, as i went home to type a record of my day God started impressing in my heart that there was something more to that incident. He told me that “In every thing you do for me , JUST DON’T STOP.” and he also told me that ” No matter what happens to you , you MUST worship Me” and i was like ” You’re right God, so i really have to go through such embarrassing situation just so i could learn that? and He said ” Well, yes”

So in our spiritual life, whether you sing , dance, serve or everything else for the Lord you do not stop. You do not stop seeking Him, you do not stop holding on to Him, you do not stop worshiping him just because you don’t have the voice anymore, and most of all you do not stop loving Him just because you are weary and going through some tough times.

God is Glorious, nothing you do or not do can take away Glory from God. So even though i sang out off tune last night, while i was there up on stage i was looking to Him , i was listening and he was speaking.

Sure it was just a horrible thing to happen, but at least i learned from that. 

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!