How terrible my days become when i depart from Your life giving presence? How lonesome my nights are when i do not seek You? Remind me Lord , please remind me that all the life I’ll ever have is really in You.
A lot of times i forget to be grateful for who You are. I’ve been looking for Joy and Satisfaction in so many things my Lord, so many worldly things that i forget that i have all that i need and want in You. You are my all in all, the true love of my life, my true passion and hope is You.
UNFAILING GOD - New life worship
Yesterday i was so discouraged. Talks about college kept on coming up, and i know that i cannot settle for less, i have a dream and no matter what others may say I’ll hold on to it because God gave me the passion to pursue it. But then yesterday i was really really down, i feel lifeless and empty. I feel like God has left me hanging, it felt like i was fighting on my own. i hated myself for wanting to go after big things, i hated myself for not being contented with the small ones.
And the sadness went all the way through the night. It was until the moment that i decided to paint and put on my ear phones and just let random music play when i heard this song. It’s been on my mp3 player for quite a bit but i haven’t heard it.
and then i cried, and then i asked for God’s forgiveness because i doubted His promises , and His plans. It may not make much sense to me or to the people around me but it’s God’s plan and it’s the best.
He is unfailing, His love’s unending, and His word is eternal , Firm in the heaven it stands!!
And i worshiped my God, because no matter where i am He is unfailing, He is working!
Sunsets. Don’t you just love them? Well it’s my favorite part of the day. Because sunsets mean a time to be still & stare in awe of beauty, sunsets are warm & cold, sunsets mean the end of hard work and a time for rest. And sunsets are best viewed with a lover or a friend, or with your Mom Or dad…
Its been a tough couple of days for the Filipinos as a huge part of Luzon was flooded due to the heavy rains that started to fall since last week. And as for me and my city, we were pretty much overwhelmed by the height the flood. Most of the streets were flooded and establishments were closed. And many families left their homes to evacuate to higher ground.But beyond all this the Lord is still good.
My family and i have spent three nights sleeping at our church along with other families. It was like a repeat of the last two times we got flooded, but this time the flood was higher, it was almost shoulder deep inside our house. Good thing we learned from past experiences and was able to prepare clothes and other stuff so in case we need to evacuate we would have supplies to last for at least a few days. Before the rainy season even started we managed to store our things in high storages inside our house. So though we still have a lot of cleaning up to do, there weren’t many damaged stuffs and we were all safe.
The first night we slept in church i was looking through the news on the internet to keep myself up to date, and i saw pictures and read stories that really broke my heart. And while i was doing that, i was listening to “You are God Alone” by Phillips , Craig & dean, here’s an excerpt from the lyrics that really struck me.
You are not a god
Created by human hands
You are not a god
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a god
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, that’s just the way it is
You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone
And i cried real tears. I know God is good all the time, i know i ought to praise Him always, every good time & bad time, and for the past it hasn’t been a problem to me to look unto God during difficult seasons, but as i looked into those pictures , as i saw children, men & women suffer and strive to survive, i found it hard to do so. I started asking God ” How do i begin to praise You? ” there were so many questions running through my head. I was hurting for the other people, my fellow countrymen who lost so much during this calamity and i can’t understand why God would have allowed such thing.
But then peace came, knowing that He didn’t do it to punish anyone but to Glorify His name. It wasn’t like He unleashed fury upon us, it was because it was part of a plan, and though all of us won’t understand ever it is for the best. And the next thing i knew i was lifting my hands to the King of Kings, praising Him for He sits on His throne that very moment. Amidst all these, His name is to be praised! For nothing can’t be reasonable enough for me to stop Worshiping His name. For He never looked away from the Philippines and let us suffer, He was there all the time. He was there as the rescuers brave the waves and rain just to get to the ones that are stranded on their rooftops, and He was there as Filipinos started helping each other cope with this, He was there as others offered their clothing and food to ones that are in need. He was there, He is here all the time, and He is good.
If it weren’t for hard times how will we appreciate the good ones? If it weren’t for lack how will we give importance to what we have? If it weren’t for difficulty how will we be able to see the goodness of helping each other? See here this is a season we must go through.
Come on now, smile for we are all blessed! The Philippines is blessed with an incredible amount of joy that in spite of all this we pinoys can still laugh & smile, for we know that better days are yet to come!
And i know there’s a lesson to learn here, let us start really taking care of the place we live, because we will suffer unless we do so. I know God wants us to take good care of our temporary home. So to my kababayans, it wouldn’t hurt to throw our garbage properly, it wouldn’t hurt to minimize the use of plastics, and it wouldn’t hurt to start living in cleanliness.
God bless you all!
Hey guys this is a happy me! College for me is about four months away, and though i still don’t have any confirmations regarding to what school i should go to, & how the finances will be taken care of (it will be really expensive but our God can afford anything!), i am just so confident in my God. I know He is placing me where i should be best & i know He will give it to me at just the right time.
As for my course, i am still going for Architecture. It might be hard a long the way & it will take long, but i trust that my God would help me finish it and enjoy it!!
I would appreciate it if you would pray for me. I need lots of prayer regarding this. And if you ever are studying Architecture you might help me by giving me some idea on how it will be for me. Thank you so much, whoever is reading this. God bless you!
I had been trying to land a job for the past week, and until now i wasn’t able to get one. My intentions for the money i will be hopefully earning were for my College Fund so it wouldn’t be hard for my parents because the course will be expensive & for a Long board of my own.
And God has surprised me! Last night when i got home from skating , i drop a few coins in my savings Jar and was surprised to see our church envelope inside it and i was like “why is there an envelope here? Are you guys playing me?” then my dad said “let me see” and my brother joked and said “receive it” and i thought it came from my brother, and i was like “Thanks Kuya! Thank you so much how sweet of you to give me something.” He just smiled. But then my dad kept shaking the jar until we saw a note written on the envelope it says ” For pastor Arnel’s Children educational fund.” What? It wasn’t from my brother, someone from the church dropped an envelepe for me last sunday! I was so overwhelmed at how the Lord provides. Apparently my dad was the one who dropped the envelope in my jar so i could see it myself.
I was so amazed and i was in tears. The Lord really knows how to bless and surprise His children. It was so unexpected for me. I wasn’t even concerned about how i will pay for college for i know God can afford anything!! I wasn’t even worried but He was assuring me that He will take care of it!
Yes it is the Lord who provides!! And May God bless that person who obeyed the Lord! :)
Today was my first shot at getting a job. Although I wasn’t able to get one today, I’ll keep on trying. It was a good experience for me. I felt so grown up when I went to the city hall and checked job openings and all other paper work stuff.
But as I stood there together with several other older people looking for work, I got afraid of the future. The qualifications for such simple jobs are high and I was hoping I could find one who does not require me to be a college graduate for now. And also at the age of 17, it is extremely harder for me to land a job. I got discouraged and started thinking of brushing off the desire to work. The future frightened me, I was afraid i’ll end up with no success someday. But God reminded me of His goodness & power, and as long as I stay in Him and He stay in me, what shall I fear? Nothing.
And tonight as I had my personal devotion, I worshipped him with the song “Whom shall I fear?” and the song spoke to me. I was reminded of God’s incredible power and goodness!
When all You are is glorious Oh God, Victorious & Strong , whom shall I fear?
When all You are is powerful & true, and good in all You do, whom shall I fear?
We have all the reasons to be fearful of anyone & anything if we do not have God in our lives. But the thing is we have Him , and He is our God. His spirit lives in us, and He strengthens us, He equips us to be victorious!! So instead of giving up, I’ll be back tomorrow again to look for a job and I hope to find one so I can save up for my college education & buy my own long board.
So yeah, i would be happy if you can include me in your prayers my dear friends. And if you ever have any prayer request pls feel free to tell me. I would love to intercede for you.
“Listen to me, you stubborn people who are so far from doing right.
13 For I am ready to set things right,not in the distant future, but right now! I am ready to save Jerusalem and show my glory to Israel.”-Isaiah 46:12-13
I remember during the first day of the event i was extremely bothered, i was talking to God ” God where can i find you here? How can we reach out in this field? What will other churches say about our church presenting this event? Where are you here?”
I was afraid not to see God move in the lives of the skateboarders/long boarders and all other people in that particular field. Our church decided to go for this event, first all of course God lead the church leaders into this, and second because we know that there are many other groups of people who are spiritually poor, it is not only those who go physically hungry or sick who needs Christ , there are many more out there.
And i was deeply searching for a sign of Christ at the first day, and to be honest i don’t think i saw him. We were just spending time being with the skaters and just supporting them with something they’re so passionate about. And so when i went home, my heart was still not at peace then i went to God and asked him to assure me that He is working , that we are doing what He wants us to do, and He definitely did. Please read the Scriptures below.
Jesus Calls Levi (Matthew)
13 Then Jesus went out to the lakeshore again and taught the crowds that were coming to him.14 As he walked along, he saw Levi son of Alphaeus sitting at his tax collector’s booth. “Follow me and be my disciple,” Jesus said to him. So Levi got up and followed him.
15 Later, Levi invited Jesus and his disciples to his home as dinner guests, along with many tax collectors and other disreputable sinners. (There were many people of this kind among Jesus’ followers.)16 But when the teachers of religious law who were Pharisees[b] saw him eating with tax collectors and other sinners, they asked his disciples, “Why does he eat with such scum?[c]”
17 When Jesus heard this, he told them, “Healthy people don’t need a doctor—sick people do. I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners.”
He told me ” Trisha you are doing what i’ve done before.” and by that he means, he didn’t care what the religious people might say because he came to be with the sinners, to be with the people the society thinks are wasted and hopeless. The mere act of supporting them for something they love is an act of love in itself!
And then i knew, i just missed Him the first day, He was there!!! And so the second day was the competition and the concert, and He was lifted up. The Gospel was preached through the songs of the hardcore bands. And as for me i really enjoyed the concert for i used to really spend time listening to that kind of genre before, the difference is that i used to listen to the worldly ones.
So see here, Jesus also came to sit and dine with the sinners, and whoever they are, whatever they do, no matter what they’re past was like he still came to reach out to them ,to fellowship with them. And i think that’s what Christianity is missing out, we are not to just stay in the comforts of our own Christian community and ignore the many who really wants to witness Christ, we are called to be like Christ, we are called to sit and dine with the people the world has corrupted. We are to love them and support them. To be the hands, feet, mouth and ears of Jesus Christ!
Today was emotionally tiring, and i was really trying to be strong for the people around me, but i know that no matter what i do i’m weak inside. And so i went to God and He told me so much about Him. He lead me to scriptures where he spoke to Job of His greatness and power, and i read the bible in awe. Indeed God is so powerful , never changing, majestic and full of wisdom. And i hear Him saying “Praise me.”
Yes, Praise God! For whatever season we are in His power, His love and His mercy never changes. His name is to be glorified in our joys and even in sadness, nothing we go through changes God!! And so i picked up the guitar and praised the God who created the whole universe, who put the stars in their perfect place, who made the night and day and who continues to leave as in awe of His goodness and grace.
And although i come crying unto Him in my weakness He gave me the grace and it is sufficient for me.And He told me of His might and power , and truly I can do nothing more but praise Him.
In my weakness He showed me His power. And i saw a thousand reasons to praise and worship in spite of whatever i’m going through.
All of my life in ever season, You are still God
I have a reason to sing!
I have a reason to worship!
Couple of hours before i wrote the entry below, i wrote about not having compassion and the heart for the lost and in need. I admitted that at some point i was just so excited about what God would be doing in my life, i forgot that i should be more excited about what He would be doing in others. And yes , i was so full of me, i was so full of thinking about the future, like having a nice house and nice car. But then i confessed that and asked God to open my eyes to whatever he wants me to do and stir my heart so hard that i wont be able to sleep. And then…
April 11, 2012
Second entry for today.
Tonight as I was praying, the Spirit led me into interceding for those who are being persecuted for Christ, for the abuser and the abused, for the brain washed people, for the many souls that haven’t heard of Jesus name, for the people who were affected in the recent 8.7 quake in Indonesia just this afternoon, and for my friends whom I let to come and go in my life without encountering the Love of Christ.
And I cried, I cried real tears. Because I see people in my head, I see them on the news, I see them on the streets, and I just let it go. I was a “Christian” who wasn’t doing anything so that these people could encounter God, I wasn’t moving in behalf of Jesus. I was like one of the many comfy Christians who sits on church and prays, but don’t do actions. I cried because God impressed in my heart the reality that many people are bound to hell, and while there is time for me and for the many others to act on Love and be the hands and feet of Jesus, we don’t. Because we think, they are plenty “Missionaries” around the world, oh indeed there must be a lot, but some are like me , living in the comforts and waiting to be taken to eternity.
And I told God that I am willing now, that He can use me now, the harvest is great but the workers are few. I want to be a real worker now, I wanna go to the field and see the harvest for myself, and do what I can do.
And then I knew my heart was really aching, wondering why there had to be so many victims, so many needy, so many people who suffer each and every day. But as I opened my bible , God showed me
Though He brings grief, He also shows compassion because of the greatness of His unfailing Love. For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.
It’s not me who is compassionate. God is compassionate, and if I am able to hurt for these people how much more our God. If I cry for these people, I am sure He is crying too. His heart longs for them, every single one of them. I can hear Him saying “If only they’d turn back to me, if only they’d come back to me”.
My God, have you given me the Heart now? Have you given me the heartache now for the lost and the needy. This heart that I was just searching for , but now it is mine. I know I have a lot to know, and I know i am unworthy , but You say I am and it’s all because of Your grace my God. Equip me father, I know Jesus would be coming soon, and there are so many who aren’t prepared for His return, so many who don’t even know He came and will come back.