“Healthy people don’t need a doctor—sick people do. I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners.”

I remember during the first day of the event i was extremely bothered, i was talking to God ” God where can i find you here? How can we reach out in this field? What will other churches say about our church presenting this event? Where are you here?”

I was afraid not to see God move in the lives of the skateboarders/long boarders and all other people in that particular field. Our church decided to go for this event, first all of course God lead the church leaders into this, and second because we know that there are many other groups of people who are spiritually poor, it is not only those who go physically hungry or sick who needs Christ , there are many more out there.

And i was deeply searching for a sign of Christ at the first day, and to be honest i don’t think i saw him. We were just spending time being with the skaters and just supporting them with something they’re so passionate about. And so when i went home, my heart was still not at peace then i went to God and asked him to assure me that He is working , that we are doing what He wants us to do, and He definitely did. Please read the Scriptures below.

Jesus Calls Levi (Matthew)

¹³ Then Jesus went out to the lakeshore again and taught the crowds that were coming to him.¹⁴ As he walked along, he saw Levi son of Alphaeus sitting at his tax collector’s booth. “Follow me and be my disciple,” Jesus said to him. So Levi got up and followed him.

¹⁵ Later, Levi invited Jesus and his disciples to his home as dinner guests, along with many tax collectors and other disreputable sinners. (There were many people of this kind among Jesus’ followers.)¹⁶ But when the teachers of religious law who were Pharisees^[b] saw him eating with tax collectors and other sinners, they asked his disciples, “Why does he eat with such scum?^[c]”

¹⁷ When Jesus heard this, he told them, “Healthy people don’t need a doctor—sick people do. I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners.”

He told me ” Trisha you are doing what i’ve done before.” and by that he means, he didn’t care what the religious people might say because he came to be with the sinners, to be with the people the society thinks are wasted and hopeless. The mere act of supporting them for something they love is an act of love in itself!

And then i knew, i just missed Him the first day, He was there!!! And so the second day was the competition and the concert, and He was lifted up. The Gospel was preached through the songs of the hardcore bands. And as for me i really enjoyed the concert for i used to really spend time listening to that kind of genre before, the difference is that i used to listen to the worldly ones.

So see here, Jesus also came to sit and dine with the sinners, and whoever they are, whatever they do, no matter what they’re past was like he still came to reach out to them ,to fellowship with them. And i think that’s what Christianity is missing out, we are not to just stay in the comforts of our own Christian community and ignore the many who really wants to witness Christ, we are called to be like Christ, we are called to sit and dine with the people the world has corrupted. We are to love them and support them. To be the hands, feet, mouth and ears of Jesus Christ!

“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

Today was emotionally tiring, and i was really trying to be strong for the people around me, but i know that no matter what i do i’m weak inside. And so i went to God and He told me so much about Him. He lead me to scriptures where he spoke to Job of His greatness and power, and i read the bible in awe. Indeed God is so powerful , never changing, majestic and full of wisdom. And i hear  Him saying “Praise me.”

Yes, Praise God! For whatever season we are in His power, His love and His mercy never changes. His name is to be glorified in our joys and even in sadness, nothing we go through changes God!! And so i picked up the guitar and praised the God who created the whole universe, who put the stars in their perfect place, who made the night and day and who continues to leave as in awe of His goodness and grace.

And although i come crying unto Him in my weakness He gave me the grace and it is sufficient for me.And He told me of His might and power , and truly I can do nothing more but praise Him.

In my weakness He showed me His power. And i saw a thousand reasons to praise and worship in spite of whatever i’m going through.

All of my life in ever season, You are still God

I have a reason to sing!

I have a reason to worship!

AWAKENED

Couple of hours before i wrote the entry below, i wrote about not having compassion and the heart for the lost and in need. I admitted that at some point i was just so excited about what God would be doing in my life, i forgot that i should be more excited about what He would be doing in others. And yes , i was so full of me, i was so full of  thinking about the future, like having a nice house and nice car. But then i confessed that and asked God to open my eyes to whatever he wants me to do and stir my heart so hard that i wont be able to sleep. And then…

April 11, 2012

Second entry for today.

Tonight as I was praying, the Spirit led me into interceding for those who are being persecuted for Christ, for the abuser and the abused, for the brain washed people, for the many souls that haven’t heard of Jesus name, for the people who were affected in the recent 8.7 quake in Indonesia just this afternoon, and for my friends whom I let to come and go in my life without encountering the Love of Christ.

And I cried, I cried real tears. Because I see people in my head, I see them on the news, I see them on the streets, and I just let it go. I was a “Christian” who wasn’t doing anything so that these people could encounter God, I wasn’t moving in behalf of Jesus. I was like one of the many comfy Christians who sits on church and prays, but don’t do actions. I cried because God impressed in my heart the reality that many people are bound to hell, and while there is time for me and for the many others to act on Love and be the hands and feet of Jesus, we don’t. Because we think, they are plenty “Missionaries” around the world, oh indeed there must be a lot, but some are like me , living in the comforts and waiting to be taken to eternity.

And I told God that I am willing now, that He can use me now, the harvest is great but the workers are few. I want to be a real worker now, I wanna go to the field and see the harvest for myself, and do what I can do.

And then I knew my heart was really aching, wondering why there had to be so many victims, so many needy, so many people who suffer each and every day. But as I opened my bible , God showed me

Lamentations 3:32-33

Though He brings grief, He also shows compassion because of the greatness of His unfailing Love. For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.

It’s not me who is compassionate. God is compassionate, and if I am able to hurt for these people how much more our God. If I cry for these people, I am sure He is crying too. His heart longs for them, every single one of them. I can hear Him saying “If only they’d turn back to me, if only they’d come back to me”.

My God, have you given me the Heart now? Have you given me the heartache now for the lost and the needy. This heart that I was just searching for , but now it is mine. I know I have a lot to know, and I know i am unworthy , but You say I am and it’s all because of Your grace my God. Equip me father, I know Jesus would be coming soon, and there are so many who aren’t prepared for His return, so many who don’t even know He came and will come back.

He never changes!

Today felt a bit different. I was so moody i hate myself! But then yeah at the end of it all i realize that no matter how odd my mood swings are, no matter what i do, no matter what i say, still Jesus is the same. We humans are easily swayed by waves of trial, moods and all other circumstances but God is not changing. He is steadfast in love, wisdom, power and glory! I am so glad my God never changes, he doesn’t have mood swings, he doesn’t get swayed!!!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall Direct your path.

Proverbs 3:5-6

The beauty of waiting

Last night was a a great youth service. It was our february special and of course it was filled with love. I remember blogging about waiting for that one special person and be with him/her for the rest of your life, it’s just wonderful isn’t it?

Well last night i was reminded that there is beauty in patiently waiting  for that person which God is molding to become your lifetime partner. And as you wait you must allow yourself to go into the process where in God will mold you to become the right one for your right one. Makes sense right? And waiting means a lot of things. It means running away from sexual temptation, it means growing spiritually, it means learning to be come a righteous man or woman, it means running away from anything that will hinder you from being pure and holy before your future spouse and of course before your God.

I remember back when i was ten years old i already asked God to help me become the woman He wants me to be and guide me into knowing a man who He wanted me to be my husband. I am one of those girls who wanted a first and last relationship. And up to now i have never dated anyone. It isn’t because i never found someone attractive or it isn’t because i’ve never felt how it was to be in love, it is because i prayed and God is certainly molding me and also the man for me, and it is because my desire is in abiding in God’s will & time and not in my own selfish desire and shallow understanding of love. 

But don’t get me wrong you don’t sin once you have gotten into previous relationships. It’s just that when you really seek God there’s no need to be in and out of relationships, you get what i’m saying? Because God has a purpose for you and He doesn’t want you to get involve emotionally and much more physically with someone who isn’t going to be your lifetime partner. He wants your heart to be given to that right man/woman who will honor you and who will Honor God in your relationship. And i also do believe that sex is for marriage, for married couples alone.

Isn’t it beautiful when you’re already in front of the altar, in front of the people you love and in front of God, and know that this person beside me is the only one i have ever loved this much, this person beside me is the one i have waited for ever so patiently, this person beside me is the only one, and this person beside me was from God. And you get to say the sincerest i love you’s and vows. And you get to have that kiss also.

Boys and girls of this generation i tell you waiting is one of the best decisions you will ever make. We are young and we tend to be aggressive in different things, DO NOT RUSH. The purpose of courtship & dating is in preparation for marriage. When you start courting or when someone starts courting you take a really close look and think ” Is this the person i want to share the rest of my life with?” and if the answer is no, then don’t go any further. Because without wanting that man or woman to be your lifetime partner is a relationship without a purpose. It is super cool to stay single. again i say it is super cool. Paul even wrote that He wished everyone is just single as he was (1 Corinthians 7:7).. But of course God has unique plans for each of us.

So to end this post. Everybody run after God and He will give you the desires of your heart. He will lead you into a wonderful relationship, and He will strengthen you. And again i will say this 

Fall in love with Christ first before falling in love with someone else, then make sure you keep falling in love with Christ.

Trisha

Dearest Friend

You don’t have to say such things. You don’t have to sound cool for anyone to love you. Well for me, i love you even without all the cool stuff you put up for yourself. I love you the way you are, simple, happy, wise and caring. That’s who you are to me.

But i guess you already know that i love you so you seek other people’s acceptance, you seek the affection of this society, and so you indulge yourself with the pressure but you end up being not yourself. You don’t have to say you do this and do that when you really don’t, you don’t have to pretend you watch this and listen to that when in fact it disgusts you, you don’t have to make all the girls like you or love you, and you don’t have to sin just because when you do the world approves of you.

I believe in the goodness of your heart. I believe in your dreams of a healthy and successful life. A life lived surrounded by the people you really love, and a life lived in constant challenge and victories. 

You are young and you can do anything. You have the talent in your hands, in your heart and in your mind. You have the ideas that can affect everyone in a good way. You are beautiful, you are strong and you will always be until the end of days.

Please do not make it hard for yourself, please avoid these vices, for you might end up in your death bed at such an early age. For you might end up destroying the relationship you have with you future spouse and your children. Please set yourself free from all your insecurities, and know that God loves you and only he can satisfy you. Please listen and take this into your heart until there is time for you. 

Go and look within yourself and see that there is goodness lying underneath the layers of all the lies, and all the wickedness , that you thought was really you. You are good, you are kind and wonderful.

When you are seconds away from your last breath you’d probably wanna die being who you really are and you probably wanna know where you are gonna go.

With much love,

Trish

Obedience!

Do the chores? Or stay lazy for a moment? God says  ”Just Do it”

I got this “Obedience” issue. For the past weeks i have been praying that God would give me the strength to ‘obey’ him as well as my parents no matter how difficult it gets. And for the first weeks it was all good, i was doing my chores without the need of being asked to, i was happily obeying my parents whatever they ask me to do. But then as the time grew longer i found myself being weary, being tired and being sick of all the expectations to do all the things they asked me to do. It was like ” Can i be lazy for a moment? Just like the others?” and then now i am asking for strength to obey and to do it without the burden.

So these past days i was battling with something within me. In my head was “Trisha get up you got to wash the dishes , clean the house, do this and do that. Or else they’ll get disappointed with you.” and then the other half of me was saying ” Trisha, sleep longer, after all you’re the youngest and it is not your full responsibility to do all the chores in the house there are other people in here and they are equipped with hands and feet. so it’s okay.” And the battle goes on. 

There were days i gave in to “it’s not your responsibility” thought and waited for the other people in the house do the chores. But then i was irritated, knowing that somehow they are still waiting on me, that somehow they wouldn’t really do the thing. But don’t get me wrong my parents clean the house too, it’s just that i’m the type that wants to get the mess clear up fast, i just don’t like seeing it still messy. I mean if i’m up at ten am, i would start cleaning immediately after i pray, but the others wont , they would first spend time on the internet or anything else. So that kinda gets on my nerve. Cuz before i settle doing tumblr or facebook, i make sure that my surroundings are clean.

So when i try to resist doing the work i get more frustrated. My attitude was terrible, i was not answering appropriately to any one, i was frowning all the way, i don’t know what i wanted. But then the other night, i said “well you got no choice get up and do some work.” And i hear God telling me to rise up and obey. And when i do rise up and obey i feel light and happy!

So the whole realization? There is joy in obeying God and serving the people around you!!! So please still keep me in your prayers! I know God is working within me and he is teaching me all about obedience and service. I am receiving God’s victory over my life!

Blessings be upon you!

I need Jesus

I need Jesus everyday, every moment, every bit of my life. I need Him every where I go, I need Him to hold me and to lead me to the things He wants me to do. I need Him as much as you need him. And yes you need him too.

I am in awe of how mighty and how powerful He is. In awe of how much love He poured out and continues to pour out on us.

There are days that i grow weak, but to him i surrender my weakness and in Him i find strength. There are moments when i seem to lose all my hope but to him i look for hope and in him i find it.

Jesus is beautiful, He is soo soo beautiful.

Hearing, Obeying, Trusting GOD!

H.O.T.