“Healthy people don’t need a doctor—sick people do. I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners.”

I remember during the first day of the event i was extremely bothered, i was talking to God ” God where can i find you here? How can we reach out in this field? What will other churches say about our church presenting this event? Where are you here?”

I was afraid not to see God move in the lives of the skateboarders/long boarders and all other people in that particular field. Our church decided to go for this event, first all of course God lead the church leaders into this, and second because we know that there are many other groups of people who are spiritually poor, it is not only those who go physically hungry or sick who needs Christ , there are many more out there.

And i was deeply searching for a sign of Christ at the first day, and to be honest i don’t think i saw him. We were just spending time being with the skaters and just supporting them with something they’re so passionate about. And so when i went home, my heart was still not at peace then i went to God and asked him to assure me that He is working , that we are doing what He wants us to do, and He definitely did. Please read the Scriptures below.

Jesus Calls Levi (Matthew)

¹³ Then Jesus went out to the lakeshore again and taught the crowds that were coming to him.¹⁴ As he walked along, he saw Levi son of Alphaeus sitting at his tax collector’s booth. “Follow me and be my disciple,” Jesus said to him. So Levi got up and followed him.

¹⁵ Later, Levi invited Jesus and his disciples to his home as dinner guests, along with many tax collectors and other disreputable sinners. (There were many people of this kind among Jesus’ followers.)¹⁶ But when the teachers of religious law who were Pharisees^[b] saw him eating with tax collectors and other sinners, they asked his disciples, “Why does he eat with such scum?^[c]”

¹⁷ When Jesus heard this, he told them, “Healthy people don’t need a doctor—sick people do. I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners.”

He told me ” Trisha you are doing what i’ve done before.” and by that he means, he didn’t care what the religious people might say because he came to be with the sinners, to be with the people the society thinks are wasted and hopeless. The mere act of supporting them for something they love is an act of love in itself!

And then i knew, i just missed Him the first day, He was there!!! And so the second day was the competition and the concert, and He was lifted up. The Gospel was preached through the songs of the hardcore bands. And as for me i really enjoyed the concert for i used to really spend time listening to that kind of genre before, the difference is that i used to listen to the worldly ones.

So see here, Jesus also came to sit and dine with the sinners, and whoever they are, whatever they do, no matter what they’re past was like he still came to reach out to them ,to fellowship with them. And i think that’s what Christianity is missing out, we are not to just stay in the comforts of our own Christian community and ignore the many who really wants to witness Christ, we are called to be like Christ, we are called to sit and dine with the people the world has corrupted. We are to love them and support them. To be the hands, feet, mouth and ears of Jesus Christ!

AWAKENED

Couple of hours before i wrote the entry below, i wrote about not having compassion and the heart for the lost and in need. I admitted that at some point i was just so excited about what God would be doing in my life, i forgot that i should be more excited about what He would be doing in others. And yes , i was so full of me, i was so full of  thinking about the future, like having a nice house and nice car. But then i confessed that and asked God to open my eyes to whatever he wants me to do and stir my heart so hard that i wont be able to sleep. And then…

April 11, 2012

Second entry for today.

Tonight as I was praying, the Spirit led me into interceding for those who are being persecuted for Christ, for the abuser and the abused, for the brain washed people, for the many souls that haven’t heard of Jesus name, for the people who were affected in the recent 8.7 quake in Indonesia just this afternoon, and for my friends whom I let to come and go in my life without encountering the Love of Christ.

And I cried, I cried real tears. Because I see people in my head, I see them on the news, I see them on the streets, and I just let it go. I was a “Christian” who wasn’t doing anything so that these people could encounter God, I wasn’t moving in behalf of Jesus. I was like one of the many comfy Christians who sits on church and prays, but don’t do actions. I cried because God impressed in my heart the reality that many people are bound to hell, and while there is time for me and for the many others to act on Love and be the hands and feet of Jesus, we don’t. Because we think, they are plenty “Missionaries” around the world, oh indeed there must be a lot, but some are like me , living in the comforts and waiting to be taken to eternity.

And I told God that I am willing now, that He can use me now, the harvest is great but the workers are few. I want to be a real worker now, I wanna go to the field and see the harvest for myself, and do what I can do.

And then I knew my heart was really aching, wondering why there had to be so many victims, so many needy, so many people who suffer each and every day. But as I opened my bible , God showed me

Lamentations 3:32-33

Though He brings grief, He also shows compassion because of the greatness of His unfailing Love. For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.

It’s not me who is compassionate. God is compassionate, and if I am able to hurt for these people how much more our God. If I cry for these people, I am sure He is crying too. His heart longs for them, every single one of them. I can hear Him saying “If only they’d turn back to me, if only they’d come back to me”.

My God, have you given me the Heart now? Have you given me the heartache now for the lost and the needy. This heart that I was just searching for , but now it is mine. I know I have a lot to know, and I know i am unworthy , but You say I am and it’s all because of Your grace my God. Equip me father, I know Jesus would be coming soon, and there are so many who aren’t prepared for His return, so many who don’t even know He came and will come back.

Lord, let me be a woman who isn’t thirsty for attention but who’s life is hidden in the shadow of Your glory in Christ Jesus.

Revelation 3:18-19

He never changes!

Today felt a bit different. I was so moody i hate myself! But then yeah at the end of it all i realize that no matter how odd my mood swings are, no matter what i do, no matter what i say, still Jesus is the same. We humans are easily swayed by waves of trial, moods and all other circumstances but God is not changing. He is steadfast in love, wisdom, power and glory! I am so glad my God never changes, he doesn’t have mood swings, he doesn’t get swayed!!!

three months

I just want to pause right now and take a look back the past three months of my life. And aside from the newly found love of baking, i jogged more, cooked more and ate more. Kinda failed with that part, haha. I also met new friends, and i think that’s gonna be one of the best parts of this year.

With regards to my relationship with Jesus Christ, i grew more spiritually. It’s like everyday is a brand new start and everyday he pours out His mercy for me. It wasn’t as easy as anyone assumes, this journey involves all my heart and when the heart is involved i assure you it would be beautifully difficult. I got to learn alot of who God really is, and i am humbled by His greatness.

There were a lot of times i did wrong decisions and did alot of things that doesn’t please him. And i felt all the shame of the sin fall upon me and i became so weak, but he never wanted me to quit because i should not do it with my strength. Because the thing is, God never forsook me and He never will, although we are unfaithful He is faithful, though we change He never changes. See, our God is great and mighty! His kindness leads me to repentance.

and so that kinda sums up all these three months? Wow, that’s short.

Well as for the coming days, i am about to volunteer for Logos Hope for the following four weeks of my life. I am stoked and nervous for this would be my first time. And it’s gonna be great!

And i am in for more Jesus! 

keep running!!!

Hi everyone. I’ve been out from the internet for about three days and a lot is happening. I hope i can sit down and really put it into details. But to sum it all up, God is faithful and merciful, the journey isn’t that easy but i still find Him with me and he never will forsake me. 

As i have told you, i have a new routine every morning. I jog with my Ate gina and we share scriptures once we start heading home. What we observed was, as we were jogging the first two laps were very challenging, your mind can deceive you, it can talk you into stopping and just give up because after all it seemed not worth it to make it difficult for yourself only to burn some fats. But once you get into the third lap you started going steady and your body seemed to have adjusted to the sudden out pour of strength, so you jog easily. And then again once you near the last round you kinda feel like giving up because it’s already near it won’t hurt to fall short. but, you can’t , you must finish.

So, we kinda looked at it like in our individual spiritual journey. once your new to the journey, you got a lot of strength and passion but you may find it hard to adjust and let go of the ‘fats’ in your life, but what you need to do is keep on going and overcome what your mind tells you. Choose to keep running. And then again once you become steady it all feels great, and as you near again you find it difficult but you have to finish the race…

And the good news is, Jesus is always with us, strengthening us through every lap we go through, He helps us let go and adjust to the things that are new to us.We can only overcome through His grace.

Ah, i just love the Lord!

i want to say more, but don’t have time. hope to hear from you!

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

Psalm 19:14

I am blessed.

There are so many things to be grateful for. For every breath, every day, every face, every life, and every act of love and more.

Jesus has kept me safe, and it’s always good to know that He is the only source of my strength. I faced some roughness along the way, but i am here sharing to you by the grace of God. Yesterday i was able to visit my high school friends during their school program, and it’s just so good to see those lovely ladies! i really missed them! Plus, it’s so good to get in a school campus and cheer for a department, i can’t wait to get back to school this june. Though i only got to spend almost two short hours with them it was alright. Nothing big happened, but just being with them felt great.

Also today i had a lunch date with my beautiful sisters in Christ, Kat And Min. Before we ate Kat prayed that God would lengthen the time, as we only had one hour to spend with each other, and we got alot of stories to tell. But God answered our prayers, it felt as if we had been talking for more than an hour but the time wasn’t up yet. Thank You Lord.

So many things happened today… really, tonight we also celebrated my grandpa’s birthday, and hanging out with the family always feel incredible.

Man! Soooo many things to thank God for! :)

Ah so blessed!

Keep your eyes fixed!