Steadfast Mercy
Some people go through it much worse

Man, i really don’t have anything to complain about. My family & i go through some pretty tough trials concerning money, and all that usual stuff. But some Pastor’s family is going through it much worse! 

See here, i know about poverty, and how it feels to not have enough money for the day. But there was never a day where i had to sleep without food on my stomach, or walk home from school because my dad didn’t give me money. It never happened! And when we go through tough challenges, we become so discouraged and couldn’t think of any possible way for us to survive, when in reality we are far more blessed than we thought we are.

But here, there’s this Missionary/Pastor whose church that sent him doesn’t really do a thing to help him at all. And now, there have been way too many times when they would try to squeeze the money so they could have food for a day. And they’re faithful and good to the poor people that they serve, to the church that they minister in. Why does this happen to the faithful ones? Whose hearts are pure with love and intentions to bring these people to Christ? While those pastors, who compromise, and doesn’t even break a sweat sleeps comfortably in their homes? and get to drive a nice car? Why?

But God reminded me of what the Apostle Paul went through, what Jesus went through. How Jesus was persecuted, and how Paul lost so much into bringing the good news to the people, but still counted them nothing compared to the Glory of knowing and loving Christ. He reminded me that this Pastor may not have all the earthly blessings he deserves to have, but he and his family has a wonderful place in the heavens, they are storing up alot of heavenly treasures! That their greatest reward is Jesus Christ!

It amazes me how this family kept faithful. If you happen to read this, will you please pray for the Medina family. They’re really a nice bunch of people. Pray for God’s grace and provision over their lives, the thing that they are doing ain’t easy, and the challenges they face are difficult. But they have their hearts fixed on the wonderful love of Christ. Please lift them up in your prayers. <3 

I think sometimes we tumblr users get an opposite effect. Instead of a quote encouraging us, it discourages us. For example you read this ” You maybe fat, but you are still beautiful.” Instead of feeling beautiful, we tend to realize something like ” Oh i’m fat.” You get what i’m saying? Is it just me realizing all these stuff. But really guys, we sometimes should stop posting about recovering or healing, and post something funny instead. Well that’s just my opinion.
Not everyone would agree, but i think sometimes we’re becoming more emotional over here on tumblr. Whenever i get on tumblr, i see hipster photos, i see cozy rooms, and i read those “It’s gonna be okay” quotes, and i end up thinking “yeah it’s gonna be okay.” when at first everything is really okay. You get what am i saying? Some of us really don’t have some major problems at all, or if we do it becomes bigger because tumblr is a very emotional place.

A lot of times i forget to be grateful for who You are. I’ve been looking for Joy and Satisfaction in so many things my Lord, so many worldly things that i forget that i have all that i need and want in You. You are my all in all, the true love of my life, my true passion and hope is You. 

Dear hiflhsdapofyhoarjlwm

When was the last time i wrote you? That was a pretty long time. How surprising. Lately i’ve been thinking about you, i was praying and hoping you are well. With all the things going on in this world, i pray you cling to hope, i pray you find what you’re looking for. I pray you can meet Jesus & be changed forever.

I will always regret the day i let you slip away without telling you that you need Jesus so badly. I thought i’ve done you enough good throughout our friendship, but the truth is i with held the only truest form of love i can give you, and that is sharing Christ with you. I remember a couple of years ago, when you said you wanted to be born again, and that you are so excited about it, that you actually kind of made the decision but when your parents knew they got mad at you. And that was the last time you ever told me about what’s going on with your faith.

And after that you shut off your mind. It felt like you don’t believe in anything or in anyone anymore, your concern revolved around the girl you so much loved ,video games, beer, and some other stupid things you do.

And ever since you left and we stopped talking i remember crying out to God, i wanted Him to intervene in your life in any way possible. I even prayed that you could come back, or he could restore the friendship we had so that i can talk to you about Jesus. I prayed long & Hard. But we grew further apart each & every single day. Guess i only had one chance and i completely blew it. 

But i know God will make a way for you. Somewhere , someday you’ll find God and He will capture you. 

Praying for you,

Your bestfriend

Dear hiflhsdapofyhoarjlwm

The other day, i missed you so badly i was about to send you a message but something stopped me. It was probably fear, i fear that you no longer care that much & would not even bother to type a single word of response. I fear i might seem like the type of girl who runs after boys. Sometimes i hated myself for having a boy best friend, i wish i had chosen a girl. Girls maybe plastic and such but girls best friend are never awkward with each other. You & I are awkward. And so our friendship fell into a tragic crash. But when i look back at the good times we had , i could not even remember why i’m supposed to regret ever having you as my friend. We were happy and crazy back then. Now we’re weird, awkward, strangers and it’s kinda okay. People come & go, though i wished we stayed a bit longer for each other.

Dear hiflhsdapofyhoarjlwm

Hey, it’s been so long since i last thought of you and cried. But each and every night i still remember a glimpse of you… a tiny bit glimpse of the past.

I am happy just as you are happy. You told me that you are in love, and i know that being in love is so awesome, cause it was like that when i had loved you.

I never thought that i’d be able to write you with so much joy, for the first time ever i can truly say that i am happy for you. I always said that before, it was true, but i was hurting also for myself. Now we’re equal.

There’s just one thing i wish for you & me, that we would not forget how our friendship started and how we have grown together through the years. We weren’t successful when it came to love, but we had one of the coolest frienndship ever. And for that i thank the Lord that i have met you. 

No matter how crazy things went, no matter how coward we acted, no matter how many words were left unsaid and no matter how awkward it has ended, i am glad that you have been a huge part of my life & dreams.

We will age, we will have our own families, we’ll have the jobs that we dreamed of, we might even lose communication, we might live across different continents, but one thing’s for sure: each & every night i’ll always utter your name as i pray, and when i do  i will remember that little glimpse of you.

sincerely yours,

The one who will not forget

A man with leprosy came and knelt in front of Jesus, begging to be healed.
“if you are willing, you can heal me and make me clean”, he said.
Moved with compassion, Jesus reached out and touched him “I am willing”, he said, “Be healed”.

Mark 1:40-41

(Jesus is full of compassion, this scripture is so powerful)
Plant the good seeds of righteousness, and you will harvest a crop of love.
Plow up the hard ground of your hearts, for now is the time to seek the Lord, that he may shower rigtheousness upon you.
Hosea 10:12
Sunset with a friend…

Sunsets. Don’t you just love them? Well it’s my favorite part of the day. Because sunsets mean a time to be still & stare in awe of beauty, sunsets are warm & cold, sunsets mean the end of hard work and a time for rest. And sunsets are best viewed with a lover or a friend, or with your Mom Or dad…

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puppy love

Way back around five years ago i clearly remember how it was to love someone in a puppy way. There was this cool boy in class who likes the same music as i do, and back then that was key to get to the top of my crush list. He befriended me & we turned out to have this amazing friendship, and he even confessed his attraction for me. And as a freshie in high school & to stuffs like that, i thought he might be the one. Oh silly me. 

Well, he even got the chance to formally know my parents by the way. Think of two thirteen year old s shallowly in love my friends. And of course there were those crazy friends who would always tease the two of us. 

See here, before i went to high school i was known to be the ugliest duckling, no one liked me, no boy told me i was beautiful or anything. So when this cool dude told me things like “your beautiful, i like you, you rock blah blah blah” i immediately fell for that. And this cool dude is close to being really handsome by the way, and many girls liked him, who would thought he’d take interest in me? Maybe because we like the same music, maybe that was the key. 

Oh well, i wrote this boy a couple of songs which he never heard. But that’s okay.

And for the first & only time in my life someone asked me out on a date on valentines day. He waited for me to head home and asked me if i could go on a date with him. And hey guys though he was my crush , i was wise enough to say no. No, because i’m thirteen and going out on a date with a boy seems corny and wrong. No , because it was 5:30 pm and my mom knows i am supposed to be home before 6 pm. So after saying “no” gently, he handed me this weird heart shaped candy , and i thought he handled the rejection well. 

I remember after a year i still thought i wont be able to move on. HAHA. Why am i posting this anyway? Because maybe if ever by chance this cool dude reads this he would laugh so hard and wonder why he ever liked me. 

okay i might as well take this opportunity to tell him something:

Dear cool dude,

I honestly thought i was deeply in love with you. But i was more in love with our music , i guess. If it weren’t for you i wouldn’t be laughing so hard today, so thanks for that. 

the one who loved you in a puppy way,



How can you love me my Lord, when i’m doing what is wicked in Your sight, & when my hands are full of filthy stains? but still whenever i choose to step forward into you , you never step back, you just draw closer.

How can you love me my Lord, when i’m nothing but someone unnoticed in your vast universe of majestic creations. I am not as beautiful as the stars or as lovely as the flowers you make, but still i was the one of the many humans you gave breath to.