A lot of times i forget to be grateful for who You are. I’ve been looking for Joy and Satisfaction in so many things my Lord, so many worldly things that i forget that i have all that i need and want in You. You are my all in all, the true love of my life, my true passion and hope is You. 

When was the last time i wrote you? That was a pretty long time. How surprising. Lately i’ve been thinking about you, i was praying and hoping you are well. With all the things going on in this world, i pray you cling to hope, i pray you find what you’re looking for. I pray you can meet Jesus & be changed forever.

I will always regret the day i let you slip away without telling you that you need Jesus so badly. I thought i’ve done you enough good throughout our friendship, but the truth is i with held the only truest form of love i can give you, and that is sharing Christ with you. I remember a couple of years ago, when you said you wanted to be born again, and that you are so excited about it, that you actually kind of made the decision but when your parents knew they got mad at you. And that was the last time you ever told me about what’s going on with your faith.

And after that you shut off your mind. It felt like you don’t believe in anything or in anyone anymore, your concern revolved around the girl you so much loved ,video games, beer, and some other stupid things you do.

And ever since you left and we stopped talking i remember crying out to God, i wanted Him to intervene in your life in any way possible. I even prayed that you could come back, or he could restore the friendship we had so that i can talk to you about Jesus. I prayed long & Hard. But we grew further apart each & every single day. Guess i only had one chance and i completely blew it. 

But i know God will make a way for you. Somewhere , someday you’ll find God and He will capture you. 

Praying for you,

Your bestfriend

The other day, i missed you so badly i was about to send you a message but something stopped me. It was probably fear, i fear that you no longer care that much & would not even bother to type a single word of response. I fear i might seem like the type of girl who runs after boys. Sometimes i hated myself for having a boy best friend, i wish i had chosen a girl. Girls maybe plastic and such but girls best friend are never awkward with each other. You & I are awkward. And so our friendship fell into a tragic crash. But when i look back at the good times we had , i could not even remember why i’m supposed to regret ever having you as my friend. We were happy and crazy back then. Now we’re weird, awkward, strangers and it’s kinda okay. People come & go, though i wished we stayed a bit longer for each other.

Hey, it’s been so long since i last thought of you and cried. But each and every night i still remember a glimpse of you… a tiny bit glimpse of the past.

I am happy just as you are happy. You told me that you are in love, and i know that being in love is so awesome, cause it was like that when i had loved you.

I never thought that i’d be able to write you with so much joy, for the first time ever i can truly say that i am happy for you. I always said that before, it was true, but i was hurting also for myself. Now we’re equal.

There’s just one thing i wish for you & me, that we would not forget how our friendship started and how we have grown together through the years. We weren’t successful when it came to love, but we had one of the coolest frienndship ever. And for that i thank the Lord that i have met you. 

No matter how crazy things went, no matter how coward we acted, no matter how many words were left unsaid and no matter how awkward it has ended, i am glad that you have been a huge part of my life & dreams.

We will age, we will have our own families, we’ll have the jobs that we dreamed of, we might even lose communication, we might live across different continents, but one thing’s for sure: each & every night i’ll always utter your name as i pray, and when i do  i will remember that little glimpse of you.

sincerely yours,

The one who will not forget

Sunsets. Don’t you just love them? Well it’s my favorite part of the day. Because sunsets mean a time to be still & stare in awe of beauty, sunsets are warm & cold, sunsets mean the end of hard work and a time for rest. And sunsets are best viewed with a lover or a friend, or with your Mom Or dad…

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Way back around five years ago i clearly remember how it was to love someone in a puppy way. There was this cool boy in class who likes the same music as i do, and back then that was key to get to the top of my crush list. He befriended me & we turned out to have this amazing friendship, and he even confessed his attraction for me. And as a freshie in high school & to stuffs like that, i thought he might be the one. Oh silly me. 

Well, he even got the chance to formally know my parents by the way. Think of two thirteen year old s shallowly in love my friends. And of course there were those crazy friends who would always tease the two of us. 

See here, before i went to high school i was known to be the ugliest duckling, no one liked me, no boy told me i was beautiful or anything. So when this cool dude told me things like “your beautiful, i like you, you rock blah blah blah” i immediately fell for that. And this cool dude is close to being really handsome by the way, and many girls liked him, who would thought he’d take interest in me? Maybe because we like the same music, maybe that was the key. 

Oh well, i wrote this boy a couple of songs which he never heard. But that’s okay.

And for the first & only time in my life someone asked me out on a date on valentines day. He waited for me to head home and asked me if i could go on a date with him. And hey guys though he was my crush , i was wise enough to say no. No, because i’m thirteen and going out on a date with a boy seems corny and wrong. No , because it was 5:30 pm and my mom knows i am supposed to be home before 6 pm. So after saying “no” gently, he handed me this weird heart shaped candy , and i thought he handled the rejection well. 

I remember after a year i still thought i wont be able to move on. HAHA. Why am i posting this anyway? Because maybe if ever by chance this cool dude reads this he would laugh so hard and wonder why he ever liked me. 

okay i might as well take this opportunity to tell him something:

Dear cool dude,

I honestly thought i was deeply in love with you. But i was more in love with our music , i guess. If it weren’t for you i wouldn’t be laughing so hard today, so thanks for that. 

the one who loved you in a puppy way,

trisha

LOL!

How can you love me my Lord, when i’m doing what is wicked in Your sight, & when my hands are full of filthy stains? but still whenever i choose to step forward into you , you never step back, you just draw closer.

How can you love me my Lord, when i’m nothing but someone unnoticed in your vast universe of majestic creations. I am not as beautiful as the stars or as lovely as the flowers you make, but still i was the one of the many humans you gave breath to.

Please don’t make me wait for another three months. Just please don’t.

Looking back is not healthy for the heart my friend. if you only know what’s happening to me now, i shouldn’t have thought of you at the first place  cause right now i’m hoping again. You shouldn’t have talked to me because that made me realize what great joy a conversation with you brings.

For the past three months i was able to move along with my life. I was without you but i felt alright. Now you’re face is creeping into my mind, for sure it’ll haunt me for the coming nights.

I miss you today, i never thought i’d still miss you after a long time of trying to go on ahead in life without you. And i found myself looking back again, to those little memories i really treasure , for they are one of my priceless possessions.

I am not hurting but i’m longing for you my dear friend. I wish you can just appear right beside me , and just say you’re okay and you’re happy. But it doesn’t work that way.

But i know for sure that i will grow old and still remember every detail of your beautiful face, ages will pass but i’ll still recognize your voice, the way you sing, the way you laugh , the way you bring life to empty words. I’d even remember how you would look up in the sky and say you don’t see any beauty but i will always say that the sky is wonderful just as we all are, Just as you and i are when we’re together.