“if you are willing, you can heal me and make me clean”, he said.
Moved with compassion, Jesus reached out and touched him “I am willing”, he said, “Be healed”.
(Jesus is full of compassion, this scripture is so powerful)
Couple of hours before i wrote the entry below, i wrote about not having compassion and the heart for the lost and in need. I admitted that at some point i was just so excited about what God would be doing in my life, i forgot that i should be more excited about what He would be doing in others. And yes , i was so full of me, i was so full of thinking about the future, like having a nice house and nice car. But then i confessed that and asked God to open my eyes to whatever he wants me to do and stir my heart so hard that i wont be able to sleep. And then…
April 11, 2012
Second entry for today.
Tonight as I was praying, the Spirit led me into interceding for those who are being persecuted for Christ, for the abuser and the abused, for the brain washed people, for the many souls that haven’t heard of Jesus name, for the people who were affected in the recent 8.7 quake in Indonesia just this afternoon, and for my friends whom I let to come and go in my life without encountering the Love of Christ.
And I cried, I cried real tears. Because I see people in my head, I see them on the news, I see them on the streets, and I just let it go. I was a “Christian” who wasn’t doing anything so that these people could encounter God, I wasn’t moving in behalf of Jesus. I was like one of the many comfy Christians who sits on church and prays, but don’t do actions. I cried because God impressed in my heart the reality that many people are bound to hell, and while there is time for me and for the many others to act on Love and be the hands and feet of Jesus, we don’t. Because we think, they are plenty “Missionaries” around the world, oh indeed there must be a lot, but some are like me , living in the comforts and waiting to be taken to eternity.
And I told God that I am willing now, that He can use me now, the harvest is great but the workers are few. I want to be a real worker now, I wanna go to the field and see the harvest for myself, and do what I can do.
And then I knew my heart was really aching, wondering why there had to be so many victims, so many needy, so many people who suffer each and every day. But as I opened my bible , God showed me
Though He brings grief, He also shows compassion because of the greatness of His unfailing Love. For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.
It’s not me who is compassionate. God is compassionate, and if I am able to hurt for these people how much more our God. If I cry for these people, I am sure He is crying too. His heart longs for them, every single one of them. I can hear Him saying “If only they’d turn back to me, if only they’d come back to me”.
My God, have you given me the Heart now? Have you given me the heartache now for the lost and the needy. This heart that I was just searching for , but now it is mine. I know I have a lot to know, and I know i am unworthy , but You say I am and it’s all because of Your grace my God. Equip me father, I know Jesus would be coming soon, and there are so many who aren’t prepared for His return, so many who don’t even know He came and will come back.