I need Jesus

I need Jesus everyday, every moment, every bit of my life. I need Him every where I go, I need Him to hold me and to lead me to the things He wants me to do. I need Him as much as you need him. And yes you need him too.

I am in awe of how mighty and how powerful He is. In awe of how much love He poured out and continues to pour out on us.

There are days that i grow weak, but to him i surrender my weakness and in Him i find strength. There are moments when i seem to lose all my hope but to him i look for hope and in him i find it.

Jesus is beautiful, He is soo soo beautiful.

So before of any of you start thinking that i was kind off turning away from Christ, no i am not. In fact the past weeks of my life spent in silence regarding my spiritual condition was just beautiful! I am starting to hear from God more and more. And i suggest that please do keep me in your prayers, along with other brothers and sisters in Christ! God is moving mightily in my life. It may not be seen on my previous posts, but i just wanna keep silent for a while as God continues to reveal more to me. Though i will still post some news about this journey along the way when and if i feel like God wants me to! SO yeah! God bless you! 

OH what great LOVE!

Hey y’all i know i haven’t been updating for awhile, reason is i wasn’t inspired to do things such as blogging when i know that deep down in me something is really wrong.

The past week has been crazy, i was filled with little & big activities and soon i was unaware of how distracted i became and how little distractions lead to sin. And so again i condemned myself & refuse to come running before God for i was so ashamed of how i turned out to be. My days has been full, but not full of Him which makes me real sad knowing that i failed to seek Him like i wanted to from the very start.

And so about an hour ago i talked to God. I picked up my guitar and sang (that’s one way i talk to him). I sang new songs , mostly just phrases of how i feel accompanied with melody. Then i just felt my tears rolling down my face. I am so dark & unlovable yet He said He loved me and will continue to do so. And then a song came out of me and it told me ” Please know that i love you more than you’ll ever understand” and i started crying all the more. because truth is i repeatedly condemn myself because i really dont understand God’s way of loving the unlovable. I mean why would the Creator of everything love me? Love someone as tiny as me & you. Somehow i knew that we were never meant to understand His love for it is far too great for us all, our brains can’t handle, our heart can’t handle it either.

I am filled with awe in how much Mercy He pours out on me, on How much Love he has for me. And i’ve encountered His love this afternoon and i can’t refrain from telling everyone.

I know maybe lots of Christians out there told you How much God loves you, But whatever they said or whatever we say will never be enough. I just wished it could be so that you’d be able to grasp the whole of it. But it wouldn’t be.

Maybe some out there dont even believe in God, But that doesn’t change the way He feels, your sin wont change it, your life wont change it. For He wont let you go.

Romans 8:38-39

³⁸ For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, ³⁹ nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

and im back!

So i think my last post here was like three weeks ago? And i’ve got to say that for the past weeks that i’ve been avoiding the use of internet and aside from the fact that our pc broke ,God worked in me in so many ways, He spoke to me and He filled me with His wonderful Love. 

So in those weeks that i befriended silence there has been a lot of changes, God asked me to give up certain things in my life, and even some people, and yes, it was painful letting things go and even more painful to let people go. But somehow God told me that in the process of “letting go” new things will come as well as new sets of people. It was just so surprising how God strengthens me each and every day, holding my heart through the process and just telling me that “ I make all things work together for your good” and i know that God is now equipping me to face more challenges and to move in behalf of His love.

Last week God started talking to me about Faith. Everyday He will keep on talking to me about Faith, and i was like, “God what’s up with Faith? I can’t get it out of my head because everyday you keep on showing me things about Faith?” . See, at first i didn’t get it from His point of view, i did not understand why He was talking too much about Faith. Not until Yesterday morning it alll dawned on me, He said ” Its a part of your preparation, I am equipping you, remember?” and i was like ” Oh yes! I missed that”. So here’s some of the notes written on my journal last week:

Matthew 14:27 Jesus walks on water

v30 But when He saw the strong wind and the waves He was Terrified and began to sink. “Save me Lord!” he shouted.

- so this was when one of disciples that saw Jesus walking on water asked Jesus to let him come to Him. And Peter stepped out of the boat and walked on water, But then he saw the waves and started sinking.

• Your Faith must remain Consistent.
• Do not look on how big, impossible, or strong the trials are.
• You start sinking spiritually when you lose faith.

v31 “You have so little faith” Jesus said ” why did you doubt Me?”

• never doubt

And there’s many more, but i got limited time to post them all. But surprisingly the message at church yesterday was “enduring faith” and all of a sudden i got the summary of what God was telling me. That It is not by how big or How little your faith is, What matters is that your faith endures, because enduring faith=great faith.

And then before i settled to rest He said ” Before you go out to move in behalf of me You must first have an enduring faith “ 

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I also have a lot of other things to share on How God is just filling me up, i also want to share some testimonies to you but perhaps i’ll be back tomorrow to post it. God bless you all.!

LOVE, trish.

FAITH.FAITH.FAITH.FAITH.